what i can do?

i now still love her...but she still can forget Him..then i decided to left..then she din even stop me...
after a few days only she tell me..but i said it was to late..i lied to her that i still can forget my ex..but the truth is i still love her..care her.. :'(...but the decision had been made..many people doesnt agree us..to be together..including my MOM!..she tell me the reason..then i told her..cant u sacrifice for me? she said can..but no in academik..but i said u never tried ur best!! i told her to tried her best then she said ok..after a few minutes i ask to go study.....but she gave me disappointed answer...i hate her so much!!! BUT I LOVE HER SO MUCH TOO!!...i told her..im going to leave after PMR...the good is she stop me..but the bad is i've decided it.. :'(...i feel so sad that im going to leave her vry soon...although i never really wants to...i hope i forget her soon..when i saw her playing with Him..i will feel no mood n vry unhappy..when i left her..she keep giving her hp numbers to many others guy..this is the most thing i dun like about her! i duno why i would like/love her again..haiz..love always change to be hatred...haiz. :'(

lonely boy

I always been lonely..my friends? they treat me good..better than my family!
when i was small...i fell asleep...then when i wake up my father,mother,n brother are just on the way to go on the road..i mean they still in the house..but almost all outside..then i ran out n call them wait me...but they dont...they just treat me like invisible..i hate that feeling :'(...
i have been left like that most time...
what they got..i dun hav...
but i had a friend..church friend..he tell me that if i ever felt lonely or thought im lonely then it is wrong..there is still got someone..just beside us,,that we didnt ever really go to feel  HIS presence..it is God..then...after that when my frens or parents go out without me lefting me beside..and alone in the home..then i keep pray to God..n think God is beside me..n i do feel it..No one is fully Good...n Great,,except God..n now i told myself..all i need is only God..

nO lOvE!

There is no love in HOME..
In house..i always quarrel with my mum...
I once left my home...
I began felt freedom..but uncomfortable...
I felt so sad that i chose to leave my home...
I feel no love in my home..i hate her so much..last time..but now the hatred had decrease...
She treat others ppl daughter better than HER OWN SON!
coz i know that she wanted a daughter long ago..she even ask ppl to exchange me with other girl..damn! that time i didnt think much..i say change change la..now i think back how cruel it was..
what i do she doesnt like!
thats why i chose to leave..
leave is the best choice i think..
now im still thinking do i wan to leave again?...
haiz... :(